so..whats new..
im at tafe again, this time i came on my own to help out, so thats heaps cool..
anyways..so the girls got to learn abit about anger and asprations and so on to day, it was trippy cause i remember when i first learn this stuff,and its trippy to being in the same room with diffrent girls with the same teacher and all that but yeaa..
anyways the girls are ment to write sum thing about what they learnt in class so im ganna do the same :)
so Anger
just thinking about the word, i bet u all can think of sum thing that makes you angry, even me at the moment i am having a couple of things popping into my head, its odd, how every day people make them self aganry they might not mean to, or they keep going over or over sum thing in there heads, sumtimes we try and make our self's angry, we dont mean to but thats just the way it is..
but the really scary thing is how we let it out, we sum times let it out by, forms of art, eg, music art.. we let it out with a bang sometimes, we yell at someone we dont mean too, some one close to us,
we some times become vilonet, sometimes to the people we would never thing that we would hurt in anyways al all..and sometimes we are too scared to let people knows whats going on, so we become like a titcking time bomb, and we just let it out by going to extram's, and we lose who we are and then become like, this thing oof just hurt pain and hate..
and sometimes we just take it out on ur self, we feel like we dont wont to bother people by letting them into our heards,and as odd as it sounds things like cutting start to feel good, it helps in an odd way, and the hole thing about drugs u thought you would never do, they become like ur best friend, that one more time the next time, we do them drugs to feel good, and to get away from all the anger, cause the anger we feel boils up and we let it out on someone then that anger becomes hurt, and then u cant let that out so thats the circle that goes around, and thats the said thing that happins....
anyways now for sumthing good..
i got my L's its about time too, i got it yesterday..and im going for my first driving lession today!!
my life is so good, ive got a school basied tranie ship, i allso have the best boyfriend, he is heaps cool, he all so has a tranie ship, that goes for 4yrs and the funni thing is that i get paid more money then him..lol
anyways..life is good, im loving life, i dont do drugs any more, and nor to i wont to, im quittin smoking, ive stoped drinking all the time, ive stoped being hard pon my slef and just having fun with life, and osince ive stoped being hard on miy self, and started to have fun with life again with out the drinking and drugs ive started to lose a lil bit of wight, so im so happy about that...and thats making me wont to get out and do more and feel better, its like im in a never ending good cycle..im so happy!!!
every thing is working good for me, its all good, its fun.,.and when im with my guy, he allways makes things seems fun and new, and he makes things good, cause i get he's just a fun person to be with, and he's fun cause he is sum one that i can joke with, and he can take it just as good as he gives it, nothing is boring when he is around..love ya babe xx
so i know a month isnt that long, but c'mon life is only lived onece, so me and my guy been talking about kids, its kinda scary but funni, it all most made me for a second not wont to ever again do anything with him, but it was okay, cause we both said we wont kidss, but not for another 3/years, but the funni thing is the age diffrents, he's 19 and im 16..going on 17, but its funni cause i said i might not have kids till i was maybe like 24 and he just went ohh, plz before then ill be a grandpa by age 27..lol
but its cool, i told him if we still togeather then i might have kids around the age 19/20 so he'll still be young enuff for kids and have a bit of life, and ill have some life, but i dont know..but yea..hey who knows yet, all i know is that i dont wont kids yet..
but i love my guy, he's sweet,and makes me lol, and that anyways i gotta go cya <3
you jump of a clif..i laugh
red fox
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
god sent me two angels from the heavens above
well its now 2008, to tell you the truth, im glad 2007 is over, and done with.
2007 was a bad year for me, i did alot of things i wish i hadn't done, and things i said i would never do, but i did, this year, im ganna do more of wont i wont, have more of an voice about what i wont, im not going to do some thing just cause every one else is.
im going to find some where i for real fit in, and not have to be in a room full of people and feel like im alown, im ganna find that somewhere and not f**k it up any more, god knows how many times i did that in 2007, im going to go were my heart and feet take me, im going to learn alot this year, i can telll
well next week my learning starts, im going to a youth conference, in brisssy, so that's going to be alright,(fingers cross) i went last year and it help a bit so here's hoping the same for this year,one of my really good mates(there like a angel in disguise) i was lookin forwared to coming isnt, and thats kinda really sucks, cause he's one of them mates that o can say any thing to, he's seen me when im sick, he's seen me drunk, he's seen my good and bad sides and yet, hes still there for me, man i love that boy(as a friends) but i shouldnt call him a boy he's 18 turning 19. but yea.
and its the same with one of my other mates, she's the only one i can really open up to, cause she knows where ive been and how i feel, and she knows how hard life can be, with some things over ur head, and what its like to wont to hide and have a brick wall up and not wont to let any one in, and its going to suck that the two people i wont to be there with me(there my two angels god sent me) wont be there, and im afraide that i wont get the most of this confrence with out them, cause my wall will be up and there the only two i let it down around, but hey you get that!!!!
so to some good news, i pasted my year10 this year, so that was good and a week into my holes i get a phone call about a job intrevew i went to, for a tranie ship and i got it, so i have to stay at skool, so thats okay i think i can handle school for 2more years, and what ever the big bad world has for me can just wait 2more years wile i get my year12 and my tranieship down and done, im glad ive got it now, its good, its going to help me get out of armidale someday, i know it.
anyways gotta go cya
2007 was a bad year for me, i did alot of things i wish i hadn't done, and things i said i would never do, but i did, this year, im ganna do more of wont i wont, have more of an voice about what i wont, im not going to do some thing just cause every one else is.
im going to find some where i for real fit in, and not have to be in a room full of people and feel like im alown, im ganna find that somewhere and not f**k it up any more, god knows how many times i did that in 2007, im going to go were my heart and feet take me, im going to learn alot this year, i can telll
well next week my learning starts, im going to a youth conference, in brisssy, so that's going to be alright,(fingers cross) i went last year and it help a bit so here's hoping the same for this year,one of my really good mates(there like a angel in disguise) i was lookin forwared to coming isnt, and thats kinda really sucks, cause he's one of them mates that o can say any thing to, he's seen me when im sick, he's seen me drunk, he's seen my good and bad sides and yet, hes still there for me, man i love that boy(as a friends) but i shouldnt call him a boy he's 18 turning 19. but yea.
and its the same with one of my other mates, she's the only one i can really open up to, cause she knows where ive been and how i feel, and she knows how hard life can be, with some things over ur head, and what its like to wont to hide and have a brick wall up and not wont to let any one in, and its going to suck that the two people i wont to be there with me(there my two angels god sent me) wont be there, and im afraide that i wont get the most of this confrence with out them, cause my wall will be up and there the only two i let it down around, but hey you get that!!!!
so to some good news, i pasted my year10 this year, so that was good and a week into my holes i get a phone call about a job intrevew i went to, for a tranie ship and i got it, so i have to stay at skool, so thats okay i think i can handle school for 2more years, and what ever the big bad world has for me can just wait 2more years wile i get my year12 and my tranieship down and done, im glad ive got it now, its good, its going to help me get out of armidale someday, i know it.
anyways gotta go cya
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Aaron Fa'Aoso
Aaron
hey!well we had a mad ass guy call Aaron Fa'Aoso come up, and we got to hang out with him due to him coming and seeing us, he talked to us about not letting people telling us we cant do any thing that we wont, he was encouraging.he opened up to us and told us what his life has been like, and he encouraged us to keep at school, till year12. and told us how he got kicked out of one school and how he went to another instead of just saying all well.he talked about how he made the change between being a football player to a up and coming movie star, he also talked about the different options, that are open to him (and could be open to any of us if, we try) like script righting, directing and acting, he talked a lot on how if we try any thing is possible to us, and how much it helps if you have your education.At the end of the day Aaron was really encouraging helpfull, and made me think what do i wont to do, and how much education helps you.(at the end of the day it really is about what you DO know)
hey!well we had a mad ass guy call Aaron Fa'Aoso come up, and we got to hang out with him due to him coming and seeing us, he talked to us about not letting people telling us we cant do any thing that we wont, he was encouraging.he opened up to us and told us what his life has been like, and he encouraged us to keep at school, till year12. and told us how he got kicked out of one school and how he went to another instead of just saying all well.he talked about how he made the change between being a football player to a up and coming movie star, he also talked about the different options, that are open to him (and could be open to any of us if, we try) like script righting, directing and acting, he talked a lot on how if we try any thing is possible to us, and how much it helps if you have your education.At the end of the day Aaron was really encouraging helpfull, and made me think what do i wont to do, and how much education helps you.(at the end of the day it really is about what you DO know)
end of year
i cant believe its all most the end of year 10 already!!!
we did our test last week, that was fun....NOT!!!
but any ways you know to get that. don't know if I'm going onto year 12, but it looks like i might be, i think i might, like what else would i be doing in the next 2years that cant wait two years right?
so anyways, i cant believe Ive been here two years already, i would love to be here next year, there are only 3original girls left me, flick and bella, but hey bella is leaving, so soon there will be 2left from 3, but thats alot lest then what started we had like 12plus girls but hey like i said b4 you get that.
so we are starting to do that tafe invites for the end of year.so should be good
we did our test last week, that was fun....NOT!!!
but any ways you know to get that. don't know if I'm going onto year 12, but it looks like i might be, i think i might, like what else would i be doing in the next 2years that cant wait two years right?
so anyways, i cant believe Ive been here two years already, i would love to be here next year, there are only 3original girls left me, flick and bella, but hey bella is leaving, so soon there will be 2left from 3, but thats alot lest then what started we had like 12plus girls but hey like i said b4 you get that.
so we are starting to do that tafe invites for the end of year.so should be good
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
im 16 almost and one too many drinks!!
Im all most 16!!!! oh yea!
so im happy to be 16 but there is no rish any more, its become like every one said just another number witch really sucks!
maybe it will get better when i wake up, it will be back(i can only hope right)
so anyways, im getting my nosie pissed to morra, for my b'day, cause i have wonted it sine i was like 10 and mum said if i still wonted it done when i turned 16 she would pay for it on my birthday so yay.
okay, so was does like have to be so full on sometimes, its like you need a time out from it sometimes, or you just wont to go back in time and change that one thing, like that oe sentence or that one move ment, or that one to many drinks.
like last night i went out with friends, and we got a cabben and every thing, and spent allmost $200 on grog alone. so it started out good, i got one of my good guy friends to come out to(but he dint drink)and have fun.
trust me he got the better side of things that night, he got the high lights, and was jus as funni as us but with out being drunk.
so before i go into the downs about what happend ill tell ya about the high lights(most of them turn out to not be so good,), free grog for me, free smokes, got to spend the night with friends,
but things i shouldnt have done was, drink on a emty stomic(never a good idea,)and scolled 2blue pules a red one and two woddy plus ontop every thing else i had to drink that night, taht was my first big no no.(I BLAME EVERY THING ON THE GROG)one of the other no no's i did was flirt around with a male friend who has a girlfriend, but the one big thing that pissed me off about all of it was the facked that we just went for a walk and talk, and cause they didnt see us we must of been "fucking", one of my new friends was telling me befor hand not to do anything with him, but yet she got him to give her a hikkie and she was flirting with him at one stage more then me(i dont class it has flirting cause all i was doing was lounging about on him)but hey what ya goin to do, but for real lounging on someone is not flirting, cause if it was then i was doing it with every one that was in the cabben with us, and them with me, i say it was in the name of fun.
The night went so wrong when (lets call them)billy and kerry stated to fight, and it wasnt just one thing it was over every thing, our fun night went strate to hell
but one thing is that i kno i will be remembering it for a lil longer, cause some how i mange to slice into my toe, the funni bit is i didnt feel i thing untill now, now it really really hurts!
and i have to go to work with it :(
okay some good news i finally got a job, but i got it a hungrys, but i dont care got to start some were and why not start some where,were you no people!
and plus i look at it this way i get paid at the end of the week!!!!OH YEA!!!!
well im going to have to leave it there untill the next big night happens
bye xox
so im happy to be 16 but there is no rish any more, its become like every one said just another number witch really sucks!
maybe it will get better when i wake up, it will be back(i can only hope right)
so anyways, im getting my nosie pissed to morra, for my b'day, cause i have wonted it sine i was like 10 and mum said if i still wonted it done when i turned 16 she would pay for it on my birthday so yay.
okay, so was does like have to be so full on sometimes, its like you need a time out from it sometimes, or you just wont to go back in time and change that one thing, like that oe sentence or that one move ment, or that one to many drinks.
like last night i went out with friends, and we got a cabben and every thing, and spent allmost $200 on grog alone. so it started out good, i got one of my good guy friends to come out to(but he dint drink)and have fun.
trust me he got the better side of things that night, he got the high lights, and was jus as funni as us but with out being drunk.
so before i go into the downs about what happend ill tell ya about the high lights(most of them turn out to not be so good,), free grog for me, free smokes, got to spend the night with friends,
but things i shouldnt have done was, drink on a emty stomic(never a good idea,)and scolled 2blue pules a red one and two woddy plus ontop every thing else i had to drink that night, taht was my first big no no.(I BLAME EVERY THING ON THE GROG)one of the other no no's i did was flirt around with a male friend who has a girlfriend, but the one big thing that pissed me off about all of it was the facked that we just went for a walk and talk, and cause they didnt see us we must of been "fucking", one of my new friends was telling me befor hand not to do anything with him, but yet she got him to give her a hikkie and she was flirting with him at one stage more then me(i dont class it has flirting cause all i was doing was lounging about on him)but hey what ya goin to do, but for real lounging on someone is not flirting, cause if it was then i was doing it with every one that was in the cabben with us, and them with me, i say it was in the name of fun.
The night went so wrong when (lets call them)billy and kerry stated to fight, and it wasnt just one thing it was over every thing, our fun night went strate to hell
but one thing is that i kno i will be remembering it for a lil longer, cause some how i mange to slice into my toe, the funni bit is i didnt feel i thing untill now, now it really really hurts!
and i have to go to work with it :(
okay some good news i finally got a job, but i got it a hungrys, but i dont care got to start some were and why not start some where,were you no people!
and plus i look at it this way i get paid at the end of the week!!!!OH YEA!!!!
well im going to have to leave it there untill the next big night happens
bye xox
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
ummm.......
ummm.....well im bord, im baby sitting for kris and all 4 kids are asleep and there's a cake in the oven, for kels b'day to morra.
i hope it goes good for her.
so anyways im still not at skool but i should be there next week, any ways
i have a major time infection in my ear where i have my upper ear done, and its getting bad, i think im going to have to pull it out, cause where the ear usally bends over up near the top its that swolen that, there is not bend it flat, so im starting to get a bit worred about it, but hey what would life be like if you never had your mind ]on something to ponder and worry about?
i get my L's in two months time im sooo happy i cant belive it, and im also getting my nosie done i hope it dont end up to be any thing like my ear,
but for my L's i have my first victem lined up, and ever one is like oh no , its like they all think im going to crash it or something! i hope i dont i dont think i would be able to give nick the money for his car to be fixed up ;s
well i gotta go cheek this cake so talk later bye xxx
i hope it goes good for her.
so anyways im still not at skool but i should be there next week, any ways
i have a major time infection in my ear where i have my upper ear done, and its getting bad, i think im going to have to pull it out, cause where the ear usally bends over up near the top its that swolen that, there is not bend it flat, so im starting to get a bit worred about it, but hey what would life be like if you never had your mind ]on something to ponder and worry about?
i get my L's in two months time im sooo happy i cant belive it, and im also getting my nosie done i hope it dont end up to be any thing like my ear,
but for my L's i have my first victem lined up, and ever one is like oh no , its like they all think im going to crash it or something! i hope i dont i dont think i would be able to give nick the money for his car to be fixed up ;s
well i gotta go cheek this cake so talk later bye xxx
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
sick
ahh i hate being sick!
taking time of skool, is always a good thing in lil amounts, but when your home all week and sick and not alowed to do anything, then it becomes a big thing and that when it really does suck!!!
so anyways, when i baby sat for kris, her lil boi nas, is sick and i got it!
but hey what fun would lyf be if you didnt get sick sometimes?
so today, mum and me went around asking if any one would like to help with some found raising for RSPCA and some place's did but one of them gave us this lamp to give away in a raffel and i think it is the most uglyest thing i have ever seen, and i mean that in a nice kinda way so anyways, tafe starts up again soon, so that will be good,im kinda looking forward to that :)
well anyways i dont kno that so say so cya
so anyways, when i baby sat for kris, her lil boi nas, is sick and i got it!
but hey what fun would lyf be if you didnt get sick sometimes?
so today, mum and me went around asking if any one would like to help with some found raising for RSPCA and some place's did but one of them gave us this lamp to give away in a raffel and i think it is the most uglyest thing i have ever seen, and i mean that in a nice kinda way so anyways, tafe starts up again soon, so that will be good,im kinda looking forward to that :)
well anyways i dont kno that so say so cya
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